Thursday, December 9, 2010

Our Miracle Baby~

For those of you who talk to me frequently, or fallow my blog, you know that my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. It was an ectopic pregnancy, meaning instead of the baby being in my uterus where it needed to be... it was in my tube. It was probably the hardest and most painful thing I have even had to go through.  My tube ended up bursting and had to be surgically removed. I remember thinking only having ONE tube, ovulating every other month, and having just had surgery, there was no way we would be able to get pregnant again quickly and without any complications. My faith was crushed; I had prayed for so long that id be able to keep our baby, and in the end, I lost it anyway.

Well, this just goes to show that Heavenly Father has a few tricks up his sleeves and wanted to show me that miracles DO happen! Once the doctor gave me and Skyler the "ok" to start trying again, we both fasted and prayed that we would be able to have a baby, that my body would know what to do, and id be able to carry it to full term. I remember lying in bed by myself one night and silently praying to my Heavenly Father to give me a miracle. I begged and pleaded and in the middle of my prayer ....I had this strong feeling that everything would be ok, and that I already was! HAH What a crazy feeling! Sure enough the next morning I was tired, boobs hurt, and I was breaking out like crazy. I knew I was pregnant! I tested early at on 3 1/2 weeks pregnant and it came out positive! :)

Then the horror set in. What if its not in the right place? What if its another ectopic pregnancy!? I must have called my sister Becky daily to give me advice and help me to stay positive. She just has this light about her that helps me get through anything. I went in to my doctor right away to make sure my HCG levels were rising appropriately. At only 3 weeks 5 days I was at 80, and then two days later I was at 360! More than doubled! Woo hoo! I had some complications early on so of course I was constantly worried and going to see my doctor, but at 5 weeks we saw that it was in my uterus (a blessing in itself) and at 6 weeks we heard its tiny heartbeat. I had wanted to hear that for so long, and when I finally did every trial seemed so much more worth it.

Since then i've been to see my doctor (Dr. Gelman and now Dr. Jones) A LOT! This is by no means an easy pregnancy. I envy those girls who's biggest problem is morning sickness. If only that were mine. This week I am 13 weeks pregnant and yesterday  I woke up to eat breakfast like any other normal day. I sat Rookie on my lap as I ate Captain Crunch (lol) and read a magazine. After I ate I started to gag and cough like usual, now that i'm pregnant eating in the morning is a chore. This time though, when I coughed I literally bled through an entire pad within seconds.(sorry TMI) I called my mother in law since Skyler is out of town, and she rushed over to take me to the hospital. After a long examination via ultrasound they discovered that my placenta has pulled away from my uterus a little bit and has caused a tear, which is what caused so much bleeding. I started crying when she let me hear its heartbeat and saw that he or she was moving around and looked totally healthy. She put me on bed rest for AT LEAST two weeks. I cant clean, cook, travel, or walk around at all. I am to lay horizontally and only get up to go to the bathroom.  If i've had no bleeding for at least two weeks I can get off bed rest. So pretty much i've been on bed rest for over 24 hours and I cant even count it as part of my two weeks because i'm still bleeding. LOL!

All in all though; if I get a baby out of this, I would do it all over again. Skyler and I are so excited to be parents and even though this is a trial we will just have to endure, it will all be worth it in the end. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father and for his many blessings. The relief society president came over yesterday (hah what a coincidence) just to say hi, and when she heard what happened she offered to have people bring me over dinner every night since I can't cook. I just had to laugh because I knew Heavenly Father sent her my way, he thinks he's so clever! lol and i'm also very thankful for my in laws and for all of their help. My mother in law is seriously awesome, I love her to death and my sister in laws keep me company every night while Skyler's away. I don't know if they'll ever know how much they help me, and how much I needed them at this time in my life. All I ask of those of you who read this is to  please pray for our little baby and please pray that I will heal quickly and be able to carry to full term. I love you all so much and I hope I can somehow repay those of you who have helped me through all of my trials, you are such a blessing in my life.

Here's some pictures of our little one at 12 and 13 weeks. :)


  1. I love that you mentioned me in there. I love you and my little niece/nephew SO much. Words can't describe it. You're so deserving of this sweet blessing and I know you're going to be the most amazing mother.

    And holy geez...that baby is so CUTE!!! I love that s/he has their hands by the face a lot. <333

    How many ultrasounds have you had now? I had 15 with Nathan, you're gonna beat it! haha. Not that it's a good thing, BUT, I love seeing him/her.

    I wish I were there to take care of you, but I'm glad that you have Skyler's family. And your relief society president is awesome.

    I love you, Thaners. Call me when you're bored!

  2. I love you too Becky! Thank you. I can't wait to have my own baby so we can have play dates together!