Food for thought

I made my blog private for a few reasons... but one was because its kind of become my diary in a sense, and you know how we all were when we were younger, "DON'T READ MY DIARY, IT'S PRIVATE!" Some things are better left to yourself, or in this case the people I know love and appreciate me for ME and nothing more. Writing it all out helps me to get through trials and also helps me to count my blessings. :) Lately Ive been having this thing where I literally cannot fall asleep until 4 am. I lay in bed from 12am-4 and just toss and turn and let my mind race frantically. As I laid in bed tonight I decided to read my scriptures to calm my mind a little bit. Thank you Iphone for having a scripture app. Its so convenient! After reading in Alma I decided to read a talk given by Elder L Whitney Clayton in October 2009. It was titled "That your Burdens May Be Light." I'm not sure why, but as I read through the talk I kept going back to a scripture he referenced. I'd read it over and over again, trying to somehow relay it to my life. He said, "Our baptismal covenants require that we should be "willing to bear one anothers burdens, that they may be light; yea, and [be] willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort." I guess I haven't been the best at being there for people when they need someone. I do my best, but I always feel like I never know what to say or do. I got an email from a friend the other day who I haven't talked to in years. She told me she read my blog and that she admired my testimony and that it helped her get through a trial she was having. Well I don't know about you, but that was one of THE best compliment I have ever gotten! It is such a good feeling to know you are helping others just by sharing your testimony. I am so grateful to those people that "share my burdens" and comfort me when I "stand in need of comfort." Words cannot describe how I felt when I lost our baby. That feeling of not knowing what would happen next, and "will it ever end!?" consumed me. It was your prayers, love, and support that got me through it all. I hope that I can somehow be that person to someone and help them get through a trial as well. If it means that I share my testimony more often then that's fine with me! We are so blessed to have a knowledge of the true gospel and also know that when we pray someone is listening and understands EXACTLY what we are going through. He shares our burdens and comforts us when we stand in need of comfort, and we should ALL try to be more like him. :)